I don’t know you
but I feel you pervasively penetrating my every thought. Far flung still holding me hung deftly demonstrating my weakest spot.
I don’t know what to do but keep you, steady, keep me keeping you I taste you on my tongue I would swallow this piquant poison if not for my need to lick your every word.
tormenting me, making me full and leaving me empty again. Shaking me up so you have someone to pacify.
letting me latch. I’m yours, securely attached enough for you to see the terror in my eyes when you cut the ties.
being everything and nothing for anyone who’s got the time, bathing in the suffering of the climb, and aching on the nasty fall back down.
The beautiful misery and the pain that makes you feel alive. But, when will you have bled enough to finally get some rest?
The safest place
you’ll ever be is all alone. Without a trace they can leave you and make you never known.
The only way
to be freely me is on my own. The safest face I’ll never see will stay unknown.
The safest place
you’ll ever be is all alone.
Open the door
and let them go.
I’ve spent nearly a decade
building a life I never wanted.
It wasn’t until we could almost grasp it
that I found it was never mine.
Will I be haunted –
haunted by this life I created and disposed of so unregretfully?
I hope so.
If I were him, I’d want to haunt me, too.
It’s closing in.
You’ve waited too long to let it out; It’s flooding in.
the sturdy shield that held too much faith. You knew – you knew It could never keep you safe.
But you’re so damn sharp.
Such mastery of predictive maintenance – notation of cautionary flares – proven fallacious. You know it wears.
It’s closing in.
Stupid girl, you closed it in again.
It feels like I missed it
The curious little smiles hands open, teary cheeks Always busy, rushing aisles
How’d you become this
It seems all on your own So bold, so brave, up and away you have quickly flown
Your empathy, your whole.
You always do surprise. Hearing your own bad news But wiping Mommy’s eyes.
So fierce, so strong
Stoic little mess Pierced by nature’s laws I will proudly confess
I hope you need me forever.
Stiff legged strangers
Trash TV No eye contact, no dangers Hey, they got here after me Out of powdered creamer coffee charred and weak Why’d I even get any This magazine – musty and bleak
What brought you here
It would be interesting to ask But the rules are very clear No talking, try to relax
Smells of metal, smells of –
oh, they called me.
How can the sun shine so brightly
When so much darkness thrives? Catapulted sickness engulfs, devours, and suffocates such bright little lives. Yet, the sun still fucking shines.
Paint my body like the sky Fractures of only the littlest light Submerge me In blacks and blues – successions of threes and twos & before me stand, eyes pinned down, Hand firm, still, Sadistic, disappointed, frown. Fill my soul, spaciously, siphon the air from it’s vacancy, and then.
Cold, Bitter, Mute
Why Me Why Today
Let me go back To a lack of accountability Too selfish For control today
Wake up and smile
You foolish, foolish, child. Get dressed and lose the entitlement You have more than you’ll ever be able to see.
Guilt, Regret, Pain
Lead me through the day With an eager heart, ready To see, to feel, and step over the decay
Silence – let’s try again
Caffeinate & relish in the gift that wasn’t earned, but given with purpose.
Good Morning, bright smiles.
Swallowing sleep and moving onward Shove it down, greet the festering Tomorrow.